im definitely dead x
When Iay in the dark with no music or the tv on, I always hear whispers. Usually I can’t make out what they are saying. But I always hear it. When I can make it out it’s usually my name or laughing. I use to think it was just people outside, but there’s no one there. I live alone. Tonight I heard “I like your bed frame” which is odd to me because I just bought a new mattress two days ago, but kept my old water bed frame. My boyfriend was in the other room watching the hockey game so I ran to him and hugged him. I didn’t tell him why I was afraid. I’m worried he will think I’m crazy. I texted my mom. She just told me to turn the tv on. I tried looking up answers on google but all that tells me is I’m a skitzo. I don’t do hard drugs, or any drugs for that matter since I’m on probation. And I don’t drink. Please tell me I am not the only one this happens to!
I send you a text to tell you I am in a hospital bed. I miscarried your child. You didn’t even ask me if I was okay. You called me a liar. Said I was just trying to pawn that baby off on you.. The Meth is getting to your head. And I feel sorry for you.
He still hugs me, and says “we’re going to get through this..”
I smile and say “together” with our arms wrapped tight around eachother.
That’s how I know he is the one.
I have never felt so much passion in my life. My whole body shakes. I forget how to breathe. When he kisses me I actually lose myself. Not the fake I think I lost myself lose yourself, like I literally lose myself and not one single thing in the whole world matters accept him kissing me. I’ve never fell so hard so fast before and it scares the absolute hell out of me, but I love it. I never want to forget this feeling. They say when you meet the one your meant to be with you just know, I had my doubts before, I thought I was in love before, but I know for a fact that this man is the man I am suppose to spend the rest of my life with. He makes me laugh so much I can’t stand it. Since day one we have been so comfortable with each other. I am head over heals, so passionately in love with Justin Vorhes and I cannot wait to spend every single day from now on with his sexy ass!